My brain has been on overload since Thursday afternoon. I have been focused, concentrating and basking in every facet of information that holds interest to me for almost 78 hours. No parties, no drinks, no distractions. Just work. I need to chill... I've got my glasses on and my sweet, chill mix "Maxn & Relaxn" playing on my ipod.
Ahhh. That's sooo nice. (It's become very odd to me what constitutes comfortable downtime the older I get. But, oh well...) Now it's time to reflect.
I am not really a tech geek or anything. I think things are cool when I see them, but my brain doesn't work in a mathematical or engineering enough of a function to remember widths, thicknesses, other measurements and weights as matters of classification. I pick up a new wakeboard and think either, "Holy shit, that's really light for something so big" or "Damn, that's heavy for something so small." Rarely do I remember the name of the style of the board either. I don't mean any disrespect with this inability or inattention to labels and construction- far, far from it actually- it's just I suck at remembering those types of details without writing them down or referring to a catalog.
"Man, you're really stupid," you might be saying to yourself. "What else is there to remember?" Well, I'm not going to argue the stupid point but there are other things that I do remember that help me with my writing. Things like:
- I remember contexts. Walking by Aaron Chang's retail booth was something that I happened past by accident. When I noticed him behind a counter, working on his computer, before I knew it I had stopped, happily introduced myself as a fan, admitted that I was nobody important and just wanted to tell him how much I appreciated his work. He smiled, was very gracious, looked at me kind of oddly, we shook hands happily and I waved goodbye.
- I remember feelings. My heart was racing when I raised my hand to ask the keynote speaker a question after his seminar. I felt like a schoolboy again and was ashamed of my fear.
- I remember people's hopes and intentions (spoken and otherwise). Of the people I spoke with, all of them had something they were trying to peddle, but talking to a company's owner (or owners) was vastly more educational, inspirational and lent itself to the company's credibility with considerably more measure than when I spoke with a company's representative. Describing a creation without having done the creating lacks some important, intrinsic validity.
I also came away with a laundry list of ideas and several revelations. The ideas I'll keep to myself for now (for future tax and copyright purposes, you see). But I'll share my revelations:
Revelation #1: I most likely will not be attending next year's Surf Expo. I am not a buyer of goods, my job is to help people sell their goods. Oddly enough, at a trade show, where everyone is trying to sell things, only a handful are curious as to how they might do it better.
Revelation #2: I still have a lot to learn about marketing. And that's good. However, I found avenues to information which were locked to me before. This makes me happy.
Revelation #3: I really suck at approaching people. In all my years as a bartender, people always approached me with what they need, not the other way around. I am happy to meet people's needs, I suck at asking for assistance.
Revelation #4: The things I fear most are the things I should most do. Timothy Ferris in The 4-Hour Work Week wrote that, and it resonates inside me like the final ring of The Liberty Bell.
Revelation #5: For me, the path to re-invention holds no end. At least no end within my line of vision at the moment.
Revelation #6: It was really good to kiss my girlfriend hello again. And I wasn't even gone very long.
Revelation #7: This is all exciting. I feel alive. Change is so much better than acceptance when it comes to things that piss me off or hold me back.
I lean back in my chair and it creaks under my weight. I feel content in my unsure future at the moment. Because I feel that it's a future completely under my control. I smile.
"The height of cultivation runs to simplicity." - Bruce Lee. Also quoted in The 4-Hour Work Week. Take care.